Those thoughts that just stick like a ear worm in my head I just need to get out…
As I return to work next week my thoughts have been on how I was feeling last year before I had to leave my previous job which caused me to be in a bad place mentally. The excitement of a new job and a fresh start is keeping me going but I know I’m not alone when I say this, being around people and interacting with the general public is hard work. However coming home to a busy family life just puts on that extra pressure, where’s my time to wind down and take a minute after being in work all day? Helping and caring for others (I do love my job don’t get me wrong, I know what I chose and got myself into and my family mean everything to me) it can’t just be me who needs 20 minutes alone without anyone asking something of me or needing my attention? I imagine most people use the commute home as their time to unwind but I’m lucky or maybe unlucky in the fact I get chauffeured to an from by my other half (I chose a good one didn’t I?) which means as soon as I set foot out of work I’m straight into a car full of excited kids who just want my attention and to share their day with me and rightfully so! But the effort it takes to take on their seemingly millions of questions, daily updates and need for hugs without allowing myself to become overstimulated and the grumpy mum as my eldest calls me! Is overbearing. If anyone has any tips or tricks I can use to ensure I don’t become the grumpy shouty mum I’d greatly appreciate it!
Since the eldest started school nearly 4 years ago it’s been none stop, I’m pretty certain we haven’t had 1 full week without someone being unwell. It’s worse when we’re just slightly under the weather because the kids still have the energy for everything they just whine and moan a million percent more. Now I’ll admit I can’t handle this at the best of times but even more so when I’ve inevitably caught one of their bugs and feel like death warmed up. Being unwell and relaxing is never possible when you’re a mum, you’ve just gotta get up an carry on as if you’re not dying inside or your heads about to fall off!
I’d like the world to stop so I can get off this germ infested timeline 💀